I think I found the perfect Rx for getting through the heartache of miscarriage: spending time with my mama.
My mom was in town yesterday for a doctor's appointment, and prior to all this, we had plans to go out to lunch and spend the afternoon together. After finding out about this miscarriage, I was a little hesitant to go through with our afternoon plans, as I was afraid I would be bawling my eyes out the entire time and walking around in a depressed haze. But I decided to follow through - and I'm so glad I did.
Not only did she let me cry on her shoulder when we first saw each other, but she also gave me the encouragment I needed to stand up for myself and seek out a second opinion and demand more extensive testing. Taking me out for lunch, some retail therapy, and a Shamrock Shake didn't hurt either.
And you know what else I did yesterday? I laughed. A lot. My mom and I have always had a really great relationship, but it's been awhile since I've been able I really had a fun time with my mom. So like I said, it was exactly what I needed. I'm so grateful to still have my mom in my life, as I know so many others who have lost parents early in life. I'm so thankful I have a mom who has always been open and honest with me - about anything. I know she'll be there for me no matter what.
So thanks mom, I love ya.
And I also want to thank every one of you who have commented in the last couple days. I'm amazed at the outpouring of support I have received from so many. I'm so thankful for this community, even though I hate there are so many of us who struggle with infertility and pregnancy & baby loss. I intend on checking out each and every one of your blogs and learning your stories also over the weekend. I look forward to supporting all of you in the future the way you have supported me this week.