Hi friends. Just wanted to write a quick update that I'm back from my vacation (if you can call taking care of a 2-year-old and a 2-month-old a vacation, but more on that later). I have lots to catch up on, both with work and the blogging world. I promise I'll write more later, but wanted to let you know I'm alive and well.
With that, I'll leave you with a photo of this sweet little face I got to stare at every day for the last 10 days:
She melted my heart with her smiles, and I miss her already ;(
Sort of. It's not the sunny, tropical getaway with my husband that I'm longing for. But I am getting away for a couple weeks. And it is someplace warm and sunny. Only it's with my mom.
We're flying out this weekend to California to stay with my brother's wife and their two kids. Why with them and not my brother you ask? Because he's in the military and left for a 6 month deployment at the beginning of March....10 days after my little niece was born. Yep, you heard me correctly. They only got to spend 10 days together as a family of four before he had to head out ;(
Since my SIL has been on maternity leave it hasn't been too big of a deal for them, but now she's back to work and needs some reinforcements to help with the kids, meals, cleaning, and walking their dog. Her parents are there this week to help, and we'll be there for almost the next two, so hopefully by the time we leave they will all be back into a routine.
So while I have visions of laying by the pool reading a book for the next two weeks, I'm sure the kiddos have completely different plans for us!
As much as I'm looking forward to getting away for awhile (I'm loooong overdue for a break from life) I'm already homesick for Jeff (and I haven't even left yet). This is the longest we'll have been away from each other since we started dating 6 years ago.
So, I'm not sure how much I'll be around over the next couple weeks. Obviously they have internet access (it's only California, not the stone age) but I'm not sure how much I'll log on. But I will be thinking about you all and hopefully lurking, even if I'm not posting or commenting. I do want to give two shout outs off the top of my head before I go:
We had our appointment with the RE today. It went well, although not too much was discussed in detail at this point.
- both of us had blood drawn for karyotyping (to check for choromosome abnormalities)
- he increased my Metformin dose from 500mg to 1500mg (I knew my ob/gyn didn't have the dose right)
- we go back in a month to get those results and discuss things further. At that time I'll also have SIS (saline infusion sonogram) done to check for uterine abnormalities and possible scarring from the D&Cs.
So yeah, that pretty much sums it up. We didn't really get any more answers today, but I didn't figure we would either. I could tell he didn't want to get into the "what-ifs" until we get the results of those things, so therefore I didn't ask. But I got the impression that he doesn't really see a reason why this is happening either. I did ask him a little about egg quality. He said egg quality does tend to be a little lower in women with PCOS but nobody really knows why, and this may or may not be a reason for miscarriage.
Basically, to me it all sounds like a game of roulette.
Obviously I don't want anything major to be wrong with either one of us, but I'm already slightly discouraged that there likely isn't a reason for this. As of now I have no idea what route we're going to take when it comes to TTC again. Maybe he'll think more aggressive treatments will help, and maybe he won't. Either way, I'm already dreading it...