We didn't get good news at our appointment today. There was no heartbeat and it was measuring 2 weeks behind. I'm devastated. I'm not ready to give up this fight yet, but I really don't know how much more I can take.
My doctor feels like we're doing everything possible, and there's just no explanation for it. After 3 losses I'm starting to find that to be a pretty tough pill to swallow. I feel like I need more answers than what we've gotten so far. She said we can do chromosonal testing on both Jeff and I to see if there are any issues there. However, if there is something chromosonal/genetically wrong with us, nothing can be done to change it. She said issues with the uterus itself can sometimes cause miscarriage, but mine appears to be find to her and she really doesn't think that's an issue.
So, I don't know what to do. My doctor wants to keep doing what we're doing and hope for the best. I feel like I need more than that. I don't know if such a thing as egg quality really exists, but I can't help wondering if my PCOS is affecting the eggs themselves, and therefore things just aren't right from the start? Would moving on to injectibles instead of dinking around with Clomid give us a better result, and reduce our chance for miscarriage somehow? She doesn't think so. If we were to seek a second opinion - would we go back to the RE we consulted with a year ago? Is there some other type of doctor who specializes in things like RPL?
Obviously, Jeff and I have a lot of things to talk about and a lot of decisions to make. We went ahead and scheduled a D&C for this Friday. So first we'll get through that and take things one step at a time from there. God, I really don't want to be going through this again. I wish someone could just put me to sleep and wake me up in a month when the hardest part of this, emotionally and physically, is over with.