I'm planning on testing tomorrow (I'll be 12dpo) but I have a really strong feeling it's going to be negative. The two times I've been pregnant I had an intuition leading up to testing that I was pregnant (I got a BFP at 11dpo both times). This time, my intuition tells me I'm not. And I'm lacking the one and only symptom I had those times before: extreme thirst. I know it sounds silly, but that's how I knew I was pregnant both times before - I was extremely thirsty for a couple days before I tested. Right now I could care less if my water glass is empty.
I'm trying to brace for the lack of second line, but I know it's going to hurt. I feel like we really made an effort this cycle and had really good timing, and I'm afraid it's all been for nothing and we'll have to do it all over again in a couple weeks. I realize this is only our second cycle of trying again, but as each cycle goes by with a BFN, I get more and more scared that this might not ever happen again for us, or the means to get pregnant again might be a little more involved than simply popping 5 Clomid pills each cycle.
I guess it's out of my control. Part of me feels so strongly that I'm not pregnant that I don't want to even bother wasting a test. But....I have to start progesterone suppositories as soon as I get a BFP, so I hate to wait to test and put off starting the progesterone that much longer. So, either way I feel forced to test. If it's negative, at least I can start mentally moving on from this cycle that much sooner.