When I went in Tuesday (CD10) this week, I didn't have any follicles over 10mm, and was already getting discouraged thinking this cycle might end up being a bust. They incresed my dosage of Follistim and had me come back today for another ultrasound. It looks like my ovaries decided to kick it into gear and start making some things happen.
My follicle sizes today were: 1@18mm, 1@15mm, 3@14mm, and 1@12mm
The RE I met with said she was a little nervous about letting me trigger, but thinks it will be okay and gave me the go ahead (as long as I wanted to) to trigger tonight. She said the smaller ones could catch up and end up containing a mature egg, but she doesn't think they will....though she said she has seen crazier things happen (followed by some stories of patients she's worked with, which freaked me out a little).
I was a little surprised to hear we were at the point of triggering already today, only because I've seen most people say follicles need to be between 18-20mm to trigger. I guess the fact that I have one at 18mm is how they decide it's time?
I'm not going to lie. I'm nervous. I'm nervous about being pregnant again and all the emotions that come with it. Part of me wants to put a halt to all of this right now in order to avoid those impending fears. But at the same time, I know I'll never fully be ready. Whether it's 3 months from now or a year from now, I'll always be scared of the what if's. So I figure now is as good of a time as any. I've already gone through doing the injections, so I might as well see this cycle through and see what happens and hope for the best.
And honestly, if it doesn't work out this cycle, I'm 100% okay with that too.