Guess what today is? Cycle Day 3! I had my baseline ultrasound today and everything looked good, so I'm on track to start Clomid tonight. I'll take that for 5 days, then Follistim for the following 2 days, and then go back for another ultrasound to see how things are developing and go from there.
I won't lie and say I don't have any reservations about this. Of course it feels good to be back to trying, and all the hope it brings. At the same time trying again means the possiblity of getting pregnant again, which means the possiblity of another miscarriage. As scary as it is to think about going through that a fourth time, I can't let that stop us from trying. I have to push those thoughts and "what if's" aside and focus on the positive and what we're doing at this moment.
We're doing things differently this time, and I can't help but feel good about that. I feel like we're in great hands, and if we do suffer another loss, I know these people will be there to pick us right back up again. They are on our side and won't give up on us.