Several months ago I was watching an episode of Teen Mom (sorry, I'm embarrassed to say it's one of my guilty pleasures) and there was a scene where the teen mom brought her baby home from the hospital. They got home, sat down, and she looked to her mom and said "What should I do with him now?" And her mom responded, "You can do whatever you want with him - he's all yours!" I just remember thinking that was a really neat thought and a neat way of looking at having a new baby. Now that I'm pregnant, I have found myself thinking that same thing a lot.
For example, we have the NT scan next Monday, and then another OB appointment on Wednesday. I keep thinking if all goes well, it would be fun for Jeff and I to celebrate by going shopping and purchasing our first item for the baby. And then I find myself stopping and saying to myself, "But wait, are we allowed to do that? Is it okay for us to start buying stuff for the baby now, or is it still too early?" And then I think back to that Teen Mom episode and remind myself, it's our baby, we can do whatever we want!
And the same thing goes for the baby's room. I keep thinking that after we find out the gender we will start decorating the baby's room. And then I stop and think, "Well maybe starting that at 20 weeks is too soon? It it stupid to start decorating that early? Maybe we should wait until after the first of the year, is that a more appropriate time to start that?" And then I remember, it's our baby, we can do whatever we want!
I don't know, it's just a really strange feeling. Thinking about these things seems to put it all in perspective. We are going to be parents to this child, and everything regarding the care of him/her is going to be our responsiblity. And as scary as that thought is sometimes, it's also a great feeling to know that we are going to be able to care for him/her however we feel best. We are going to be able to do whatever fun things we've alway dreamed about doing with him/her. And why? Because he/she will be all ours!